The Truth is I am Nervous about becoming a Mom of 3 Kids…

Moms with 3 kids, I need your advice… I need you to reassure me that everything is going to be okay.

I did not think that I will ever say this… but I am extremely nervous about becoming a mom of 3 kids.

Right now, I am freaking out! I don’t feel ready – physically or emotionally…

I can’t even sleep properly at night anymore because all I can think about is how much life is going to change again in a few days from now.

Many moms say that the transition from two kids to three kids is easier than from one kid to two kids.

Is that true?

My first born and second born have a 3-year age gap so, to be honest, it wasn’t an extremely difficult transition for me.

My second born and third born will have a 20-month age gap! Now that makes me extremely nervous…

I am not even sure what to expect or what to do when the baby arrives home and my toddler runs towards me thinking that I brought him a new toy to play with.

He doesn’t understand what is going on and he is still breastfeeding!

He thinks my belly is an apple at the moment…

The thought of me breastfeeding 2 kids at the same time is already giving me the shivers. I never wanted this to happen but it’s been extremely tough trying to wean my son off. I have been feeling so guilty about it that I have decided to try tandem feeding.

Tandem feeding is when you breastfeed a toddler and newborn.

It’s when a mother falls pregnant while nursing and then has to nurse her toddler and baby at the same time, or if the mother is breastfeeding twins.

I’m not even sure as to how long I am going to do this for.

Right now, all I’m thinking about is how I am going to be a young mom with 3 kids under 6-years-old and with a husband who is always traveling for work.

I have no idea as to how I am going to cope or when I will ever sleep again…

Thank God for family, and for my cousin who takes care of the kids while I work.

I have an amazing support system and I know that if I didn’t have them with me, I would most probably crash.

I still need to figure out how I am going to install 3 car seats in my car!

There’s so much on my mind right now and I feel as if I can’t even plan because this isn’t like blogging.

It’s real life. Real moments.

I keep telling myself that I can do this… but…

I’m scared that my relationship with my husband is going to take a strain…

I’m scared of losing myself again and halting my career which is finally starting to take off.

I’m scared that I might neglect one kid for the other.

Who would I carry on my hip first? Who should I hug in the morning first?

I keep asking myself: “How will I give equal attention to 3 kids and a grown man?”

I feel as if I have already failed my kids before I have even begun this new journey. I don’t remember feeling this way before my second child was born.

Is it because I was mentally prepared then for a second child?