Last night was horrible with Kitana, I’m not sure if it’s the teeth but she hardly slept and just kept crying .. and on top of that she wanted to be on the breast the entire night. I’m sure many breastfeeding moms are going to criticize me for this post but I did promise to be honest on this blog and I will.
Kitana and I slept for like 4 hours. I feel like a zombie. I’ve noticed the past couple days that she is wanting the breast more often, literally all the time. I work from home and this makes it easier for her to just take it.. Yes she just takes the breast when she feels like.
She is always snacking, I feel its time to wean her off slowly. My mother keeps telling me she’s still a baby, let her drink but I just can’t handle it anymore. I’ve become frustrated because she hardly eats food and sleeps with the breast only. She wakes up several times a night for the breast. Don’t get me wrong, I love breastfeeding but not 22 hours a day! It is such beautiful bond between a mother and child. It is the best nutrient you can give your baby however I feel I need to have a schedule for it. She needs to eat more solids.
When she was born I did not have enough breast milk, at the hospital they tried formula but she just kept throwing up. We tried formula again when she got bigger and the same thing happened. Not sure if she was allergic to it. We did try a few brands. So I decided to breastfeed exclusively, I initially wanted her to get used to both so it would be easy if I was working and she was with someone else. I used to express breast milk and feed her via bottle during the day..as time went on I became more lazy and stopped expressing..
Now it is difficult to express because my body has gotten used to the way she drinks. I only blame myself for the way she is today, I needed to changed it and put her on a schedule and I did not do that. 🙁 We tried sleep training several times but I didn’t have the willpower to continue. The only method that worked on her was the cry it out. One night she slept for 11 hours straight but cried for like 1 hour before she actually slept. She was only 7 months old then. I couldn’t stand hearing my baby crying, I used to sit in my room and cry! Emotionally I could not tolerate it. We went for a sleep training course, I bought sleep training books, even found information online.
I feel like I am an expert on sleep but yet I can’t get my daughter to sleep through the night. I’m not sure what to do at the moment regarding sleep training however I decided I need to find a way to slow down breastfeeding. Maybe that will help her sleep better? As a first time mother I took everyone’s advice and never really sat down and asked myself how I am going to do this. Now I feel it has come back to bite me.
I love Kitana, She is such a happy baby but when she doesn’t have a good sleep she is grumpy. I have read that sleep is extremely important for a child and therefore want the best for her. Am I wrong for saying all this?!