I Cut My Tubes And Now I Regret It…
Ever since I cut my tubes, I haven’t been feeling like myself…
Don’t worry, I’m fine physically – the procedure went as planned but emotionally, I am breaking down…
Could it be a combination of postpartum hormones that is causing me to feel this way?
There have been a few nights when I woke up thinking about how easy it was to get my tubes cut but how hard it has been for me to stop thinking about it.
Am I overthinking this?
I did the most permanent birth control option there is available – only because my I fell pregnant while I was on my pill for my last born – he is now 2-months-old.
The correct term for getting your tubes tied or cut is Tubal ligation. This procedure blocks the sperm from reaching the fallopian tubes to meet an egg.
There are three different ways of doing this:
You can either get your tubes tied which can be reopened at a later stage, get them tied and cut or you can get them cut and burnt which cannot be undone.
There is a slight chance of you falling pregnant after this procedure especially if your tubes are tied but it is a very small chance if the procedure is done correctly.
When I found out that I was pregnant with my third child, I freaked out!
It was hard to come to terms with the fact that I was going to be a mom of 3 kids and even now, I am still finding it difficult to cope – but I wouldn’t change it.
I look at my son and regret all those moments when I thought twice about having a third child.
I don’t regret having my third child but I’m not planning to have a fourth child.
I knew cutting and burning my tubes was the right decision to make while I was pregnant, I even discussed it with my doctor during my first pregnancy check-up. I signed the forms a week before my C-Section immediately without thinking twice because I knew it was the right decision to make.
I can’t afford to have another “oopsie” but now… the feeling of knowing I can never have more kids makes my heart ache.
I feel empty… more like incomplete.
A part of me is gone.
I let someone cut into my body and change it. On purpose.
We did the procedure moments after my son was born in theatre… It was like I said hello to new life but then said goodbye to my womanhood.
I keep wondering what IF I had just one more?
I always wanted a big family because I am the only child.
But then I remind myself that even if I wanted too, I just couldn’t. It wasn’t in my budget…
In today’s world, it is so hard to even have two kids especially if you don’t have a good stable job. The cost of nappies and school fees is ridiculous…
Cutting and burning my tubes was the right decision for me after all but I just did not realize how it would affect me emotionally.
No one talks about this part.
There are many pros to getting your tubes tied but then there’s just that one con … a con that can affect you even years after doing the procedure.
REGRET – Knowing that your chances of having future babies are over.
It’s a big decision to make and the one thing that I have learned from this process is that you should not make the decision too quickly because this is forever.
Would I change this decision? Probably not – but would I be truly human, truly a woman if I did not feel that twinge of regret ….