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To My Husband, now that I’m a Mom…
Dear husband, I want to apologize to you.
I woke up this morning thinking about how much our lives have changed ever since we have become parents.
We used to live life on the edge, party when we wanted to and travel wherever we could – spontaneously. But today… everything is different. Our late nights out are early nights in because I’m constantly exhausted.
WE hardly ever go out alone. WE never spend enough time together… and WE don’t communicate the way we used to.
Our 1 hour phone calls are now 5 minute instructions – calls that tell you what to buy before you come home.
I’m not the person that I used to be. I’m not the bride that you married; I know I’m not fun anymore and that is what worries me.
I am now a mom and my priorities have changed – but to you, I’m supposed to be a wife. The wife that used to make you smile and surprise you at night. 😉
My hair is always in a mess and my dressing style has changed – I was hoping to wear that Little Black Dress a month after giving birth but that isn’t happening because I still can’t fit into it. I was hoping to look sexy for you tonight so we could rekindle our romance but that isn’t happening because our newborn is irritable and just threw up on me.
I don’t know what you are thinking any more and that scares me.
Every time I try to kiss you, our newborn screams. Every time I try to hug you, our toddler interrupts.
I need you to understand me and the change that I am facing.
I need you to be patient with our relationship and hold my hand on this path that we are walking on.
I need you to communicate with me and share what is on your mind.
I didn’t expect it to be this overwhelming but it is. I’m torn between my kids and husband even though I shouldn’t be. I wish that I could give you the same undivided attention but I can’t. I thought that I would have enough time but I don’t.
I’m sorry that I put our relationship on the side line, while I focus all my energy on our toddler and newborn.
I’m sorry for not giving you the attention that you deserve.
I’m sorry for making empty promises and ignoring you.
I’m sorry for not kissing you goodbye this morning because instead… I had to change a dirty diaper.
I guess we didn’t realize just how much everything would change. Some for the better while others for the worse (you know what I’m talking about).
I want you to know that your bride still exists. She just needs time to figure out how to return.
She needs to gain the confidence she’s lacking at the moment… She needs you to tell her she’s sexy even after having 2 kids.
I feel different. I look different.
I know that you feel like you are sharing me but trust me it won’t last forever. One day our kids will grow up and we will be dating again.
I want you to know that our romance hasn’t ended. We will get back those moments that we shared once upon a time.
I need you to love me even when I push you away. I need you to hug me when I’m standing naked by my closet staring at my clothes. I need you to kiss me when I’m overwhelmed with tears in my eyes.
I have realized that being a good mom is making me a bad wife but thank you for tolerating it.
Thank you for loving me even when I’m moody.
Thank you for calling me pretty on the days I feel ugly.
I know I haven’t said this in a long time, but I LOVE YOU. You are important to me and I promise to remind you just how much I love being married to you.
You never complain and that is what amazes me. You are an amazing father and I will always treasure you.
My husband replied to my letter – To My Wife, now that you’re a Mom.
Heather
October 27, 2015 at 21:40
I’m glad you have an understanding husband. I’m sure you have your hands full right now!
Shaney Vijendranath
October 28, 2015 at 09:22
Oh yes! I don’t even have time to chat any more…lol He is my Superhero. 😛 <3
Carolyn Augustus
October 28, 2015 at 11:39
With both hubby and myself working shifts, I absolutely know the feeling.
Karen at MomAgain@40
October 29, 2015 at 11:55
This too shall pass! Nice post!!
Bianca
October 31, 2015 at 10:39
Beautiful Shaney x
Nabihah
November 1, 2015 at 20:44
Beautifully written ! And I share your sentiments as well – I am also blessed with an understanding hubby… Although at times, I just want to wring his neck !
Shaney Vijendranath
November 2, 2015 at 08:04
Thank you so much! Glad you enjoyed it.
Robin Rue (@massholemommy)
November 3, 2015 at 18:13
My situation is unique because I am divorced from my kids dad. Both of us are remarried and since we share custody, we each get lots of alone time.
Stacie @ Divine Lifestyle
November 3, 2015 at 18:15
That’s beautiful. Parenthood can change things with your spouse. It takes patience and a willingness to understand that different isn’t bad.
lisa
November 3, 2015 at 20:07
This is a wonderful letter. I think every mom feels this way at some point in the early mommy stages. Just always take the time for you and your husband. That is the most important part.
Jeanettte
November 3, 2015 at 20:57
It is a great letter and a wonderful reminder of what parenthood is. As much as I try to always give attention to my hubby it doesn’t always work out how I plan!
Ricci
November 4, 2015 at 06:34
This is a great post!! I’m not a wife or a mom but I do love the points you made!
thedealmatchmaker
November 4, 2015 at 07:35
Very great post.. I feel the same way, glad that I have a wonderful husband 😉
Mimi "MimiCuteLips" Green
November 5, 2015 at 14:10
I love your raw honesty and I totally get it. After about 6 months I started to feel like my old self again. I needed to feel like my old self again and I began to get some of the things that I missed about the old me back. It can be tough but we can do it.
Susan Quackenbush
November 5, 2015 at 23:38
This is absolutely incredible! It has certainly inspired me to take some time to talk to my husband and share my thoughts with him as well. Thank you for sharing this beautiful post! 🙂
HilLesha
November 6, 2015 at 10:28
I could have easily written this, because this is something I can relate to on many levels. It’s always wonderful to have an understanding spouse, though.
Miss Aki
August 7, 2016 at 01:13
Just wondering, why exactly are you apologising?
lameez
May 19, 2017 at 22:45
Great post, beautifully said. I can relate with u and I can say I’m greatfull for hubby he is always there no matter what and most of all understands. We have for kids and its hectic my side …love ur post!
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